Trust You

August 4th, 2005

I believed in the lies
And denied the truth
Why am I surprised
I should’ve known better than to trust you

[Chorus:]
I really thought you were my friend
But I was wrong
You brought this friendship to an end
Yeah I found out
I really thought that I could trust you

Maybe I was blind
I just couldn’t see
It was always right in front of me
Guys can be jerks
Girls can be too
Trust can be broken between me and you

[Chorus:]
I really thought you were my friend
But I was wrong
You brought this friendship to an end
Yeah I found out
I really thought that I could trust you

Dreams have been shattered
Nothing else mattered
I’m losing my mind
And I’ve never felt this blind

[Chorus:]
I really thought you were my friend
But I was wrong
You brought this friendship to an end
Yeah I found out
I really thought that I could trust you

 

2005 (6)

That’s Where My Heart’s Breaking đź’”

March 18th, 2005

Going under
Deep within my skin
Wondering why
You won’t let me in

Falling down
Right into myself
Going under
Deep within my skin

[Chorus:]
Under my skin, that’s where my heart’s breaking
Looking in the mirror at the life that I’ve been faking
Counting to the moment where I’ll never be awaking
So under my skin, that’s where my heart’s breaking

Under my skin
That’s where my heart beats
That’s where my blood flows
That’s where I lost my mind
That’s where you broke my heart

[Chorus:]
Under my skin, that’s where my heart’s breaking
Looking in the mirror at the life that I’ve been faking
Counting to the moment where I’ll never be awaking
So under my skin, that’s where my heart’s breaking

Under my skin
I’m lost in my mind
Impossible to win
And I’m never coming out again

[Chorus:]
Under my skin, that’s where my heart’s breaking
Looking in the mirror at the life that I’ve been faking
Counting to the moment where I’ll never be awaking
So under my skin, that’s where my heart’s breaking

 

2005 (3)

Goodbye

August 2004

It’s hard for me to say
What’s becoming of this day
Never knowing what to do
I always end up running back to you

[Chorus:]
Hey, I was dreaming of you
Late last night (oh)
I was in love with you
But now that feeling’s gone
Never knowing what to say
It’s like you ditched me every day
My heart is beating uncontrollably
I’m going to cry
It’s time to say goodbye
To all of my feelings that have been unleashed
Lock them in a cage, get out of this stupid stage
All of this happened because you said goodbye

Maybe I could at least say sorry
But the pain you put me through isn’t over
I’m always crying over this but it happened months ago
It’s hard to forget all your twisted lies

I wish I could lock them up in a cage
Why am I stuck in this stupid stage
Water dripping from my eyes so much like a faucet
My dreams are missing in action

[Chorus:]
Hey, I was dreaming of you
Late last night (oh)
I was in love with you
But now that feeling’s gone
Never knowing what to say
It’s like you ditched me every day
My heart is beating uncontrollably
I’m going to cry
It’s time to say goodbye
To all of my feelings that have been unleashed
Lock them in a cage, get out of this stupid stage
All of this happened because you said goodbye

Maybe you could have said sorry
And maybe I would have forgave you
But that’s all for now
Never say sorry
It means nothing
Goodbye

Goodbye
Goodbye
Sorry means nothing
Goodbye

My heart is beating really fast
My hands are getting sweaty
Will this moment ever last
Holding on is getting hard
Why is life like this

[Chorus:]
Hey, I was dreaming of you
Late last night (oh)
I was in love with you
But now that feeling’s gone
Never knowing what to say
It’s like you ditched me every day
My heart is beating uncontrollably
I’m going to cry
It’s time to say goodbye
To all of my feelings that have been unleashed
Lock them in a cage, get out of this stupid stage
All of this happened because you said goodbye

Disclosure: I found some older writing, mostly songs, on my computer. I will be posting these the remainder of this month – feel free to laugh at my teenage angst!

2004 (5)