No, unfortunately, this is not a new poem. I have been struggling with writer’s block most of this year, but I haven’t given up on my passion! I once took a few years off from regularly writing, and I don’t intend to do that again. The year is passing so quickly, so I thought I would share an update with my now 64 followers! Thank you all, for all of your support! In the meantime, I have been trying to focus on new experiences and other passions to inspire myself.
First, I started the year with the decision to donate my hair!
I got to see my most listened to artist of 2018 in concert, Chelsea Cutler. I also saw myself in her Snapchat story afterward (points to you if you find me)!
After obsessing over the soundtrack, specifically, Burn, I saw Hamilton!
I did some volunteer work, and helped install a bench at a new park!
Lastly, I got to meet up with some friends from out of town for my birthday!
As I’ve previously mentioned, I also turn to music for inspiration. These have been my top favorite songs of this year:
Lui Peng – Just Go
Flume – Friends
Terror Jr – Terrified
Cole Messey – Not Over
Overall, my year has been going well! I hope to start producing some new content – so I don’t overwhelm you all with my old poetry drenched in teen angst! Stay tuned!
December 3rd, 2008
Why do you still want me around
I can only count on you to let me down
Your feelings for me aren’t there at all
And nothing in this world could cushion my fall
You don’t think I’m good enough
In no way am I this tough
I’m going to break by staying here
But walking away is something I fear
I know I can’t be just your friend
My feelings for you need to end
You don’t know what you’ve put me through
I’m hopelessly in love with you
Two years has been too long
I just don’t know what I did wrong
Every day you fill my mind
With memories that you left behind
And I’m scared of what I have to do
Because love’s still not enough for you
Love Was Not Enough (Part I)
September 2nd, 2008
You can’t make me love you
And I can’t make you too
But it’s a little too late
Because I already love you
And I don’t know what to do
Cause I missed how this started
But I know how it’ll end
I’ll still be broken hearted
And I’m afraid of the future
But it’s too late to go back
When I know in my heart
That I’m everything you lack
And I feel so empty
I feel so dead
All these thoughts are controlling
Taking over my head
I don’t know what to do
Because I know you don’t care
And I know that when I’m hurting
It’s you that won’t be there
I can’t take this anymore
How much longer am I expected to stay
Because every time I turn around
You don’t let me walk away