Colorblind

August 17th, 2009

Started out just like a song
I thought we both would sing along
Happily ever after – just like a movie
Feeling good while the beat flows through me

I didn’t want there to be an end
I didn’t want you to be less than a friend
Sat up at night just thinking things through
I was so in love with you

[Chorus:]
Music notes float around the air
The color green is everywhere
I used to have you on my mind
But now I’m only colorblind

You were my favorite song on repeat
Fell in love with the words and beat
The song ended and so did we
At first, it was too hard to see

[Chorus:]
Music notes float around the air
The color green is everywhere
I used to have you on my mind
But now I’m only colorblind

I used to think about you at night
Scared that things wouldn’t turn out right
Scared that you wouldn’t sing along
And you f***** up cause you were wrong

Sometimes I wish I had never met you
But I think it was important to
You taught me lessons that I needed to know
So I am glad that you let go

[Chorus:]
Music notes float around the air
The color green is everywhere
I used to have you on my mind
But now I’m only colorblind

Note: I am very aware that I’m not a singer, and I mess up a lot in my video. However, I used to be so eager to post things I just wrote that I would upload them as is. I was brave, and I’m not ashamed of that!

Falling Over The Past

August 16th, 2009

Cold hands
Small smile
Keep me around
And I’ll stay awhile
Take your time
I won’t take mine
I’m not waiting for you
To make up your mind
Be my friend
And I’ll be yours
But I’m not strong
I can’t be your cure
You’ve been hurt
I’ve been hurt too
So I’m not staying
To get hurt by you
Something so new
Something so bright
But if you wait too long
Time will turn out the light
And my sad eyes
Get carried away
I can’t make up my mind
With someone new every day
Moving on from the past
Just took way too long
And every step I took
Felt out of place and wrong
My feet dragged so heavily
But time has passed since then
I can now take off the weight
I can walk fine again
The past left so fast
It was too hard to breathe
Knowing someone just left you
That you thought wouldn’t leave
And searching for that feeling
That you could only find there
Takes a bit of time
And letting your heart tear
You have to open up
You have to let yourself be free
And I’m trying the best I can
Looking for something new in me
Then something happened
You made me feel again
But when I first met you
I never felt you’d be more than a friend
I kissed you in my dream
And it just felt so real
And when I woke up
I wanted to know how it feels
And I’ve lost myself
Anticipation has me staring at walls
And I wonder once I space back in
If this is this how it feels to fall?

Carry Me

August 13th, 2009

It all started out
As a simple request
Nothing intended
No interest
But it all got too deep
Thoughts began flowing
Carried away
I’m not sure where I’m going

[Chorus:]
I don’t know what to do
I’m so lost in my head
And I try to go forward
But backwards instead
And the clock keeps on ticking
Time keeps on moving
And I am so small
And I am still losing

My mind and my thoughts
They just won’t tag along
And for once I’m not confused
But for once it’s not wrong
And it’s only their opinions
But mine isn’t me
Then when I turn around
I don’t like what I see

[Chorus:]
I don’t know what to do
I’m so lost in my head
And I try to go forward
But backwards instead
And the clock keeps on ticking
Time keeps on moving
And I am so small
And I am still losing

And here I am
Just looking in the mirror
And who I thought I was
Is no longer here
It’s just me in the world
Not sure what to say
Because speaking my thoughts
I get carried away

[Chorus:]
I don’t know what to do
I’m so lost in my head
And I try to go forward
But backwards instead
And the clock keeps on ticking
Time keeps on moving
And I am so small
And I am still losing

Please just pull me back
To who I once knew
I can’t keep on going
Just knowing it’s you
You didn’t say much
Or nothing at all
But here I am
Will you catch me when I fall