Temptation

April 30th, 2011

I heard temptation say my name
It whispered in my ear
And all this guilt lays on my mind
Blasting for all to hear
The emptiness just can’t be filled
No matter who’s around
And the devil knows just what I want
But it never will be found
I found comfort in my ways
But it never fills the hole
And the more I try to drain my mind
The more my thoughts are full
And as I wait so pathetically
I wonder if anyone knows
I wait for a simple word
That passes as it goes
And these moments are slipping away
I’m wasting my own time
But I know to hold this in
I’ll always be just fine

Following

April 30th, 2011

The idea, so close
The passion, so strong
But each and every thought
Makes it feel more wrong
The temptation, irresistible
The lust, set on fire
The devil’s reaching out her hand
And I feel your desire
Your lips pressed on mine
Up against the wall
And if I do this now
I think I might fall
Lock your eyes in mine
And look at me like before
Take my hand
And I’ll follow the allure

Invaluable

July 14th, 2022

I let my world come crashing down
I could no longer hold it together
The ends of my last thread had frayed
And hanging on was too much pressure
Over the years I’ve given up hoping
That happiness could be in my life
But I was a victim of my circumstance
And realized I shouldn’t be a wife
Because my life is decided by me
I don’t want this state of confusion
I want to discover who I really am
I spent too much time in a delusion
So I let my world shatter piece by piece
Until I could no longer recognize it
I can change my hair, my job, my home
But these memories won’t let me forget
Everything I went through was for a reason
So I need to see this through
I never found out what it’s worth
But in the end I’ll find my value

The last poem I wrote before this was in April, titled “Whatever It’s Worth.” I might not know yet – but I’m getting there. (Photographed: April 2022-July 2022)