Left Again

August 1st, 2010

I left you at the door
And you didn’t know what to do
You only trusted me
But I left you with no clue
I imagined it’d be worse
I didn’t think I could leave
But walking out the door
I knew I had it in me
You wouldn’t understand
Just another night away
It’s not what I had planned
You’ll forget me anyway
And there’s beauty in the dark
But there’s magic in the sky
So around the world again
And I’ll say my last goodbye

Panic

July 31st, 2010

An unknown feeling has been following me
And it hasn’t gone away
So I walk around paranoid
Because it lusts me every day
The night is when it’s most clear
And I can almost taste it
But this feeling makes me antsy
I just don’t want to face it
When it crawls up my legs
It sends shivers all around
And in the dark
The feeling will be found
It tries to take my hand
And I refuse to let it do so
I know I can be stronger
If I wait it might let go
But still, I feel surrounded
I feel so boxed away
I feel like something’s wrong
And I feel it every day
The open door is waiting
The closed door is wanting
And the light wants to be off
So the dark can start haunting
The sounds in the day
The sounds in the night
Everything you’re feeling
You know it can’t be right
You try to stand your ground
You try to think it’s fake
But between your dreams and reality
You know that you’re awake
So you try to figure out
If it was just a dream
But the more you figure out
The more real that it seems
So you try to stay awake
You feel like you’re awake
You think that you’re awake
And start to wonder if it’s fake
You can only feel the cold
And nothing feels okay
Because you just can’t move
This nightmare took your life away

Playlist

September 20th, 2021

My words are lost in thoughts
I’m trying to decrypt
They’re jumbled up in code
And I can’t read this script
Twenty-four hours of nameless music
I’ve left it on repeat
To find the message underneath
Am I being indiscreet
The melody is made of letters
In a language I want to know
You can play to the beat of my heart
I’ll be a metronome
Though I am not a muse
I don’t smile like Lana Del Rey
But I can lose myself in the beat
At the moment you press play
I guess my words will never be configured
And maybe this is cliche
But I will listen to the lyrics
Of feelings that I can’t convey