Fix Me

November 9th, 2009

because they all can see
they know
you can’t stand your ground
you’re dizzy
you’re falling

right into your skin
and you’re trapped
no way out
this is you
but your skin doesn’t fit
it doesn’t make sense.

my words
my thoughts
so confused
so dizzy
so deep
hit the core
no known problem
no solution
this is me
no solution.

Solve me;
there’s no answer.

Fix me;
there’s nothing wrong.

I’m not broken;
you can’t fix me.

2009 (29)

So Confused

October 11th, 2009

So suddenly
I can’t believe
I let myself get into this

And anxiously
I made believe
Happy endings really exist

And on my own
And so alone
I found comfort in a voice

And in the sound
So interwound
I led myself into a choice

And questioning
What once believed
A path I’d find would do me right

And nervously
I can’t believe
I once was looking for the light

And in the end
It will make sense
But nothing seems to anymore

And up and down
This stupid road
Still looking for an open door

I once believed
I once thought true
That love was a mutual feeling

But years of pain
And weekly crying
My broken heart’s finally done healing

And late at night
I couldn’t sleep
With thoughts of you clouding my mind

I took the pain
I took the confusion
Cause loving you just made me blind

And out of sight
Was never out of mind
Until I found someone thought to be better

But I got caught up
I tripped too fast
To find myself under the weather

And friends can’t see
When they’re not around
And maybe I found
I like it that way

And so confused
And so confused
And so confused
And so confused

I can’t say it enough
To bring out it’s worth
Because so confused
Is all I’m worth