January 9th, 2020

I search for a feeling
I’m not sure exists
I try to write it off
But the longing persists
I hold on to people
Who once left me broken
Because these feelings inside
Still want to be spoken
I feel like I’m observing
From inside of a mirror
I can’t save myself
How did I get here


November 21st, 2019

I don’t know why I feel
The way that I do
Everything fell apart
And it was you that I turned to
You weren’t prepared
So you left me broken
And turned around the words
That I had once spoken
You know so much
I thought you cared
But when I think of it
You were never really there
You gained my trust
That was my fault
One day I hope you’ll learn
How it aches to fall apart

Midnight Insomnia

August 23rd, 2009

You’ve got me refreshing and hoping, but every time I’m let down with the disappointment of the fact nothing has changed since the last time I checked. I’m wondering what I should do, I don’t want to be a bother, but it’s all that’s been on my mind since I carelessly did something right for a change. I can’t let it go, you’ve got me so confused, and I’m thinking I’m hiding this pretty well, but it shows more than anyone is willing to look for. The words keep repeating in my head, and when I want to say them I’m given no opportunity, for the fact you’ve been too busy to exchange conversation with me lately. My closed eyes will tell you anything that you’re willing to hear, with no doubt, brave and standing tall, nothing in the world could take me down. My eyes slowly open, I start to see, and I crumble again because once I see you I can’t stand to know that I was too scared to tell you how I really felt for the fact I was too scared of being broken again.

(Originally Posted Here)