Doorway

November 12th, 2009

In my doorway
I found you
not what I expected
but I found I like you

You held onto me
very close
and I found
I liked it that way

We were so close
but so far away
and at my front door
I left you

Goodbye
so far
so far
you left me

And in the air
I feel you
telephone calls
wireless connection

So close
so far
so near
so far

But I could wish
and I could want
but I am not
who you want

So far
so far
so far
you don’t want me

So close
so close
so close
I want you

Midnight Insomnia

August 23rd, 2009

You’ve got me refreshing and hoping, but every time I’m let down with the disappointment of the fact nothing has changed since the last time I checked. I’m wondering what I should do, I don’t want to be a bother, but it’s all that’s been on my mind since I carelessly did something right for a change. I can’t let it go, you’ve got me so confused, and I’m thinking I’m hiding this pretty well, but it shows more than anyone is willing to look for. The words keep repeating in my head, and when I want to say them I’m given no opportunity, for the fact you’ve been too busy to exchange conversation with me lately. My closed eyes will tell you anything that you’re willing to hear, with no doubt, brave and standing tall, nothing in the world could take me down. My eyes slowly open, I start to see, and I crumble again because once I see you I can’t stand to know that I was too scared to tell you how I really felt for the fact I was too scared of being broken again.

(Originally Posted Here)

Our Conversations

May 2nd, 2008

I know you noticed me
And yes, I noticed you too
We spoke some words today
But more I couldn’t pull through
I miss our conversations
But these words are too hard to speak
And now your words mean nothing
When before they made me weak
I cried some tears today
But no more than one or two
Just because it’s over now
Just because it’s completely through
It really hit me today
But it happened so long ago
And when we pass each other
It’s something nobody would know