Inception

January 21st, 2020

I’m coming undone
Like the buttons of my blouse
The end of a long day
Victim to dreams of the doll house
Childhood bottled up
Unraveling with time
Innocence unnurtured
Nature of my mind
Love came at a price
That I could not afford
I must have gone bankrupt
When you cut the umbilical cord

Mirage

August 30th, 2009

Last night you held my hand, just like a few weeks ago when we kissed, and those were all dreams, but nothing feels as real as this. I’m lost in this state of mind, and I can’t figure out who you are, and in the process of figuring myself out too, I’m not getting very far. You did this to me unintended I beg, I didn’t expect anything out of words, but here I am with you running through my mind, and you haven’t seemed to step out yet. I never expected to see you like this, and I never expected to see myself acting the way I am, but here I am looking at myself in the mirror, appearance untouched, but looking deeper shows that nothing’s what it used to be. I’m at a loss of words on the fact we’ve been at a loss for words our self, and our conversation has ended. Waiting to talk to you has been on my mind for too long now, and every time my phone goes off my smile fades because your name isn’t there anymore. If it weren’t for my curiosity I would have never had to hear you say you’re sorry, and you weren’t, but it made me smile anyway. If you’re just a mirage it’d be nice if you could let me know now, because I don’t want to get too close to someone who will only disappear in the end.

(Originally Posted Here)

Taking Over Reality

December 15th, 2005

I slam the door shut
Keep these feelings away from me
It’s scaring me
What I’m becoming

[Chorus:]
I’m insane, are these normal feelings
I’m crazy, delusional
But it’s not a dream, reality
Destiny is calling me

Kinda crazy when you think about it
I’m falling into this empty pit
Catch me
Before it’s too late

I’ve already fallen too deep to be saved
I’m not sure but my dreams have taken over – reality

[Chorus:]
I’m insane, are these normal feelings
I’m crazy, delusional
But it’s not a dream, reality
Destiny is calling me

Lock the door and throw away the key
These feelings are sinking me
So lost in these daydreams
Everything’s not what it seems

Why’s life doing this to me
Dreams taking over reality
Sink me in the sea of death
Now it’s gone, nothing left

[Chorus:]
I’m insane, are these normal feelings
I’m crazy, delusional
But it’s not a dream, reality
Destiny is calling me

 

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