Endgame

January 24th, 2022

Am I too obvious
Predictable to a fault
Exposed wounds are bleeding
So you rub it in like salt
Am I too honest for you
Someone that communicates
Feelings are too much
You’re done with my updates
But you’re too inconsistent
You go from hot to cold
I can’t keep up anymore
This routine has grown old
So now it is your turn
And this game is chess
You’ll play checkmate
But I’ve won nonetheless
Because I owe it to myself
After all I’ve been through
It’s time to move on
From this life I outgrew

Magic

April 22nd, 2010

I grew up on Magic Sands
Sailor Moon and Pokemon cards
Skinned knees from bike rides
Barbies with the girls
Games with the boys
Anything was possible
Until the streetlights came on
Sunsets were mysteries
I couldn’t read the clock
But I would wake up early
To beat my brothers to the Playstation
Overalls and dresses
Hiking and makeup
Childhood was everything
That is should be
Long days on Kristen’s porch
And sneaking into the hot tub
This neighborhood was an adventure
Long walks to the pool
Scootering through the laundry room
Bike rides around the block
My imagination couldn’t stop
But funny to imagine
I ever wanted to grow up
And funnier to realize
This made me who I’ve become

The Truth

January 11th, 2010

I’m locking up secrets
They’re encoded in this book
I’m a composed person
Until I get that look
I’m coming undone
Your eyes bring me down
I’ve reached out for help
But you’re never around
I don’t want to play your games
I don’t know why I care
When I don’t want you around
You’re always there
I’ve written it out
These feelings so bare
I’m still longing for you
And this just isn’t fair