Accomplice

January 28th, 2011

I’m still dreaming about you
I never pictured this outcome
You’re like a nightmare
That I can’t wake up from
So many words wasted
On poems written about you
I never wanted any of this
I hope you’re haunted too
Get out of jail free
Should not exist
As partners in crime
You also deserve this
I’m drowning in guilt
There is no remedy
You can leave a person in the past
But you can never erase the memory

New Year’s Eve

December 31st, 2010

I can’t believe it’s over
It still seemed so young
An empty feeling started
To end with a full one
A weakened hug
To find a hand
And lips that aren’t my own
A while before
A lust-filled night
Left nothing at my door
A haunting feeling
That comes and goes
That just can’t be ignored
A ghost awaits
To haunt my thoughts
And tempt me with allure
An empty kiss
A half-filled hug
Left emptiness endured
To find a hand
And open lips
To fill the empty hole
That night of lust
Turned into more
To find another soul
Beauty sparks
But sleepless nights
A flame was never blown
The ghost awaits
And haunts the nights
Of disconnected souls
A loving hug
And lips I found
Create and fill the whole
But in the dark
And in the sparks
Two flames will kill my soul

Wanting

August 18th, 2020

Here I am again
I lack the words to say
I set myself apart
But I don’t want to feel this way
I want to feel accepted
I want to feel wanted
But I won’t let myself
Feel anything but haunted
Here I am again
I don’t know how to proceed
I write myself into pieces
That no one ever reads
I want to feel happy
I want to feel important
But I can’t change myself
So I’ll live my life dormant