Invaluable

July 14th, 2022

I let my world come crashing down
I could no longer hold it together
The ends of my last thread had frayed
And hanging on was too much pressure
Over the years I’ve given up hoping
That happiness could be in my life
But I was a victim of my circumstance
And realized I shouldn’t be a wife
Because my life is decided by me
I don’t want this state of confusion
I want to discover who I really am
I spent too much time in a delusion
So I let my world shatter piece by piece
Until I could no longer recognize it
I can change my hair, my job, my home
But these memories won’t let me forget
Everything I went through was for a reason
So I need to see this through
I never found out what it’s worth
But in the end I’ll find my value

The last poem I wrote before this was in April, titled “Whatever It’s Worth.” I might not know yet – but I’m getting there. (Photographed: April 2022-July 2022)

Everything But Me

March 20th, 2022

You’ve tried to keep me trapped
In an image that I’m not
Picture perfect in a frame
But I think that you forgot

I keep myself busy
Just to keep myself numb
And now I’m not sure
Who it is I have become

[Chorus]
So if I haven’t been myself
Don’t know who it is I’ve been
When you said to go to hell
Where do you think it is I went

And who I was before
Doesn’t matter anymore
There’s more in life to see
I can’t continue to ignore

You drag me down with you
Because you’d love to see me fail
But I can get back up again
And in the end I will prevail

[Chorus]
So if I haven’t been myself
Don’t know who it is I’ve been
When you said to go to hell
I’ve been there time and time again

And you can’t keep me here
I think it’s time for me to leave
Take everything but me
From a life that I won’t grieve

[Chorus]
So if I haven’t been myself
Don’t know who it is I’ve been
When you said to go to hell
Where do you think it is I went