Love Me Anyway

February 13th, 2010

I liked the idea of you and me
But you didn’t take us seriously
Now all of that is in the past
Because nothing ever seems to last
But it’s something I won’t forget
You’re a prison I’ll always regret
You left me with memories that won’t go away
Could someone else love me anyway?
I hate the fact I have this curse
My heart or my actions, I don’t know which is worse
It’s not like you gave me much of a choice
But it’s not like I didn’t have a voice
I wish I had known before this came to be
Because this is now my reality
And I have to live with this day by day
Could someone else love me anyway?

The Letter

April 29th, 2020

“I think you’re depressed”
An unusual love letter
Your words perplexed me
Saying you wanted me to get better
You listed examples
That I didn’t want to see
Mental illness wasn’t something
I could grasp tangibly
I don’t feel sick
I don’t want to be dead
And I’m not always sad
But you sensed things unsaid
At eighteen years young
I didn’t want to accept
That these feelings are normal
So I left them uncheck