Wanting

August 18th, 2020

Here I am again
I lack the words to say
I set myself apart
But I don’t want to feel this way
I want to feel accepted
I want to feel wanted
But I won’t let myself
Feel anything but haunted
Here I am again
I don’t know how to proceed
I write myself into pieces
That no one ever reads
I want to feel happy
I want to feel important
But I can’t change myself
So I’ll live my life dormant

Unexpressed

August 13th, 2020

Putting thoughts on paper
Shouldn’t be this hard
Because when I’m with my notebook
It’s safe to drop my guard
But I leave things unresolved
In the back of my mind
Like an archived checklist
Of why I’m not fine
My thoughts are just that
They’ll never be more
But if I can’t explain it
What am I writing this for