I Know

January 25th, 2010

One little lie
I shouldn’t dignify
So I placed a rose in to your hand
You placed your toes in the wet sand
I saw that look inside your eyes
But I let you say goodbye
I know I didn’t try
I know I didn’t try
We crashed on your bed
My chin above your head
In my arms was where you laid
But we soon began to fade
And not the beach, but where we lie
One last kiss before goodbye
Our hands intertwined
Guilty thoughts inside my mind
I let the train pull me away
But it brought you back to me one day
We walked around in the summer air
I just really wanted to care
I know I wasn’t fair
I know I wasn’t fair
Another laying in my bed
Confused thoughts inside your head
I never told you, you were right
My feelings I just couldn’t fight
I wish I could take it back
But then the experience I’d lack
I know that it was wrong
I’d known it all along
I wish I never lied
I’m sorry I didn’t try

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Your Lips

November 21st, 2009

Upon your lips
my eyes have found
a place that fits for mine
and in your hands
I have found
a place to intertwine
but time moves too slow
and I’m too fast
my feelings can’t keep up
but yours haven’t found
their way to me
and patience is slowly fading
months have passed
but have we yet
is this not going to work
or am I too fast
I can’t slow down
but I don’t want to be a jerk
I miss your smile
I miss that look
I haven’t been around in awhile
but you hooked me back
when I thought we were done
and I’m so confused
you brought me back to step one
intentions are secret
and so are your thoughts
I’d buy them if they could be bought
I’m driving myself crazy
but you’re too unstable
I wish I could help you stand
and thinking of this all
the way we started
I was confused from the start
and when our conversation ended
the feelings came back
I hate how close
and how far apart
and you don’t know
the way you make me
in the process of going crazy
the feelings have won me
I’m smiling too much
I can’t help but blush
but you’re not aware of my feelings
and after one night
you had won me over
bringing my heart back to healing
and I have been waiting
for some kind of sign
and maybe this time is it
because upon your lips
my eyes have found
a place that fits for mine

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Becoming

December 3rd, 2019

The year is coming to an end
But I want time to stop
I’m watching life pass me by
Like I’m stuck behind the backdrop
The decade began with tales of woe
A heart that was going to burst
So I gathered myself and looked in the mirror
I said “I’m going to put myself first”
Those words rang false as I hit the wall
A fist held tight on my neck
In a year’s time, I had forgotten my worth
A memory that I’ll always regret
But a wilted flower can still bloom
One can regain their stature
If you lock the door and walk away
There’s hope for another chapter
You can nurture seeds and watch them grow
Find love, find home, find marriage
You’re not confined to who you were
And a phase that was once disparaged
But smooth sailing can still storm
A moment can become cutthroat
So it’s sink or swim, but I know my place
And I’ve learned how to stay afloat
So as seconds countdown on the clock
I wish to not forget these days
As ten years time changes everything
And I’ve learned from my upraise