November 7th, 2019

The things I once thought
I only wrote
Too scared to admit it
So they were never spoke
They filled up pages
That were never read
I can’t erase them
So now I write in lead
A pen is permanent
My thoughts are not
But I will give them away
Because of the lessons they taught

Midnight Insomnia

August 23rd, 2009

You’ve got me refreshing and hoping, but every time I’m let down with the disappointment of the fact nothing has changed since the last time I checked. I’m wondering what I should do, I don’t want to be a bother, but it’s all that’s been on my mind since I carelessly did something right for a change. I can’t let it go, you’ve got me so confused, and I’m thinking I’m hiding this pretty well, but it shows more than anyone is willing to look for. The words keep repeating in my head, and when I want to say them I’m given no opportunity, for the fact you’ve been too busy to exchange conversation with me lately. My closed eyes will tell you anything that you’re willing to hear, with no doubt, brave and standing tall, nothing in the world could take me down. My eyes slowly open, I start to see, and I crumble again because once I see you I can’t stand to know that I was too scared to tell you how I really felt for the fact I was too scared of being broken again.

(Originally Posted Here)

Walk Away

September 2nd, 2008

You can’t make me love you
And I can’t make you too
But it’s a little too late
Because I already love you
And I don’t know what to do
Cause I missed how this started
But I know how it’ll end
I’ll still be broken hearted
And I’m afraid of the future
But it’s too late to go back
When I know in my heart
That I’m everything you lack
And I feel so empty
I feel so dead
All these thoughts are controlling
Taking over my head
I don’t know what to do
Because I know you don’t care
And I know that when I’m hurting
It’s you that won’t be there
I can’t take this anymore
How much longer am I expected to stay
Because every time I turn around
You don’t let me walk away

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