Run

February 19th, 2020

You used my pain
To your advantage
Of feelings that
I did not manage
A path that I
Could never change
Of memories that
I can’t exchange
With love left behind
In the past
Times of hope
That wouldn’t last
And I can’t hide
Or run away
So I sold my soul
To feel okay

Your Lips

November 21st, 2009

Upon your lips
my eyes have found
a place that fits for mine
and in your hands
I have found
a place to intertwine
but time moves too slow
and I’m too fast
my feelings can’t keep up
but yours haven’t found
their way to me
and patience is slowly fading
months have passed
but have we yet
is this not going to work
or am I too fast
I can’t slow down
but I don’t want to be a jerk
I miss your smile
I miss that look
I haven’t been around in awhile
but you hooked me back
when I thought we were done
and I’m so confused
you brought me back to step one
intentions are secret
and so are your thoughts
I’d buy them if they could be bought
I’m driving myself crazy
but you’re too unstable
I wish I could help you stand
and thinking of this all
the way we started
I was confused from the start
and when our conversation ended
the feelings came back
I hate how close
and how far apart
and you don’t know
the way you make me
in the process of going crazy
the feelings have won me
I’m smiling too much
I can’t help but blush
but you’re not aware of my feelings
and after one night
you had won me over
bringing my heart back to healing
and I have been waiting
for some kind of sign
and maybe this time is it
because upon your lips
my eyes have found
a place that fits for mine

The Ending

December 11th, 2019

Time has passed
But I still ache
I told my truth
You let me break
Locked in my journal
The events that I transcribed
The feelings that I held
The medicine they prescribed
What happened can’t be changed
As I watched you drive away
We can’t alter the past
But we can start over today
Because in the midnight hours
When I was most vulnerable
You made a mistake
And we were irrecoverable
Because I am not an instrument
I’m not here to be played
I trusted too easily
Which left me betrayed
So if we see each other
There’s nothing to discuss
You made your decision
And left me with mistrust
All these songs know how I feel
And I can’t keep pretending
I’m worth more than an afterthought
So this must be the ending