Departing

January 30th, 2022

Secrets pile up
Like bottles in the trash
Gaslighting my suspicion
And it hits me like whiplash
Years have gone by
It hasn’t gotten better
But things will never change
After a decade has weathered
Invading my privacy
Because you wanted the truth
Instead of speaking like adults
You chose to sleuth
Complicated is an understatement
You violated my trust
I just want to take off
And hide in my wanderlust

Dreaming For Reality

December 13th, 2021

I thought I was past this
But here I am again
Longing for more
And holding it in
I thought I was wiser
But maybe I’m wrong
I still bite my tongue
And pretend to go along
I thought I was content
Now I know it’s not true
I’ll chase some new dreams
Because it’s been overdue

Spiders

May 10th, 2010

I know the truth but I fall false
I’m tangled up in a web of illusion
And in my heart I fear I’ve lied
I’m hoping for a conclusion
I pray to be right
But know that I’m wrong
My fingers have been crossed
And I’ve known all along
These spiders know the truth
And it slips through the cracks
And I fall to the floor
With the truth that it lacks
All these tears full of lies
And this heart about to burst
I was thinking of myself
When I should’ve put you first
And the rain’s falling slowly
And I think they think I’m crazy
But I think I’m forgetting
Because this is all getting hazy
And when I wake up I’m gone
In an unfamiliar place
And the lies are all around
Written right across my face
And they all left me here
Because the rain left me showing
The truth is uncovered
And the spiders kept going
They opened my wounds
And left me to die
In a sticky little web
I built from this lie