Unrequited

September 1st, 2009

When you say you love me, I feel comfort, but I don’t think I love you anymore. After all these years I still feel awkward when I see you, and I don’t think that’s going to change. You taught me so much I could never learn on my own. Thank you for teaching me how to feel and how to hurt. I’ve gotten to the point I just want to take myself so far, to where my knees give out, and no matter where I am, I’ll be okay. I want to think that I will always have you as a friend, because no matter how in love with you I was, I don’t think being more would be best for us ever again. Thank you for helping me to grow, and for being part of my experience, but most of all, thank you for never loving me back.

Lying

January 7th, 2011

Lying in the middle of the road
Where Shadowcrest met Chesbro
It never felt so right
With all those people around
But I could only see you
And then you were gone
I never had you
I’d be lying if I said I never wanted you
Lying down when you’re pacing my room
On the phone with her
All I wanted was those words for me
But they would never be
I’d be lying if I said I never loved you
Lying in my bed
Our lips are slowly meeting
But your phone is buzzing
Because she’s texting you
And I wished your eyes were only for me
But they couldn’t see
I’d still be lying if I said I never wanted you to love me