Write You Away

December 18th, 2010

No other words to describe it
I still wonder in guilt
I call this confusion
Locked in the walls I built
They’re not coming down
I live life in shame
And the more I start to wonder
The more I feel insane
Nothing’s alright
Nothing’s okay
Why are you still on my mind
Why won’t you go away
I write you off
The words drop from my pen
But after sometime
You’re back once again

Present

November 5th, 2019

I don’t know what I’m doing
But I just keep going
I try to hide who I am
But my anxiety is showing
I’ll crumble into pieces
If you look me in my eyes
Because all of my walls
Have become my disguise
I try not to care
But they know that I do
I feel everything
Even when I don’t want to
I try to be strong
And that’s not enough
So easily
They call my bluff
I’m just not okay
But I think that’s okay
I’ve made it before
I can get through today

2019 11

Forgive Me

September 23rd, 2019

I want to hate myself
For what I did to me
But I don’t know how
This was something I didn’t foresee
I blame myself
When this wasn’t my fault
But I can’t let go
Even when forgiving is my default
I want to condone myself
For all the blame I take
But I can’t help myself
When others seal my fate
I try to love myself
I try to climb my walls
But I can’t fix myself
When forgiveness is my downfall